Day 24: Something you’ve learned.
I have learned so much in the past 40 years. It’s hard to narrow it down to just something to interesting to write here. I came across a quote this morning that really sums up how I am feeling about life at the moment.
At some point, you have to make a decision. Boundaries don’t keep other people out. They fence you in. Life is messy. That’s how we’re made. So, you can waste your lives drawing lines. Or you can live your life crossing them -Grey’s Anatomy
Boundaries. Something that has been nailed into my head since the beginning of “therapy time”. I have been told I need boundaries. Of course I do. I see my boundaries now as my set of values and morals. Though most of my life I have been setting some mental and physical boundaries to keep people out of my life. I don’t want to get hurt again. This past year has been a series of breaking those boundaries that I have set up. If I keep setting up these walls (boundaries) to not get hurt, then what am I learning? To be alone? To not live? To not learn?
Life is messy. I want to learn how to deal with the ups and downs. I want to challenge myself to stretch out beyond the walls that were once there. I still have a few walls. I need them. But I won’t let them fence me in anymore. I need to live. I need that challenge of figuring out how to pick up the pieces when it all falls apart. And I am. I can’t tie life up into one neat little package with a pretty bow. I don’t think I want to.
My life is a journey with many twists and turns. I stumble, I fall, but as Toby Mac says “Get back up again”. 🙂
There have a been a few thing happen this week that seems out of control but you know what, they are not out of control….they are in God’s control. I don’t feel wrecked about it. I just know, God’s got it. If it’s meant to be worked out it will and if not, well, the ride was well worth it. I loved the ride but it’s time to get on another and see where it will take me.