this week I have be trying to figure out just about anything and everything that has been coming my way. school, K, family stuff, friends stuff, eating stuffs, pain management…..you name it, i have been trying to figure it out. and now i am exhausted. have i really gotten anything done, no.
i had a mini meltdown this week myself. i have a couple great friends who walked with me through it tho. prayed me through it. there is so much that i need to just hand over to God and let Him take care of it. why is that so hard?
school stuff is giving me anxiety attacks left and right. i am registered for classes. i have decided to just get a general degree in LYHS. Not really a concentration area because, my life is too busy. I am a non trad student with a family and life. I don’t have all the time in the world to give up to volunteering and building my portfolio at this time. i need to work cuz paying for college isn’t easy. i need to spend time with K cuz she is my daughter and needs me. I am doing the best I can with what I have. I need for my advisor to see that too. My health hasn’t been the greatest these past months. But I know i am getting better. I feel the weight coming off. I see it. I feel different.
tomorrow i see the orthopedic doc regarding my knee. i hope that it will be an easy fix. i am sick of pain meds and pain in general. i think that is part of the problem. pain. i don’t deal with it very well.
Tomorrow I leave to go to Oklahoma. I will be meeting a bunch of folks whom I have been volunteering online with for the past couple years. LifeChurch.tv. amazing folks. I can’t wait. I am a tad nervous but yet so excited, that it doesn’t matter how nervous I am. LOL
Lastly tonight, I want to say I am thankful for some truly amazing friends. They have helped me get through this week thus far. Without you, I am sure I would still be a mess….or more of a mess than I already am. I love you guys.
Weigh in tomorrow morning since Friday I will be on the road. I can’t wait to see what my weight loss is this week. woohooo.