I have this anxiety/fear that is overwhelming at the moment. I know knee surgery is after lunch today. I get that I am a tad nervous about that. But I think the bulk of my fear is in dealing with the U. I will meet with my advisor on Thursday. I think she wants me to drop the class or take an F and retake it again in the spring. But then what will that do to my financial aid and all that? I think that maybe I will have to either drop out completely or talk to the dean of students to get reinstated. I don’t know. I can’t afford to pay full out for this last semester of class.
I keep praying. But I don’t think my faith is strong enough. I don’t know. Maybe it is time to move on and just try to find work and live. I don’t know. I don’t know exactly where I would go. Though been looking at Stewartville/Rochester MN area. There has got to be work up there. I just want to do something other than school stuff. I don’t know.
So, knee surgery is this afternoon. I hope that I won’t be laid up for very long. I don’t have time to be down and out. I need help Lord. Anyone reading this, please pray for some clarification, peace, help, etc. I need something.