Yeah, it’s been one of those days. Struggling but I don’t really know why. Other than I absolutely have NOTHING to do. Job hunting is sucking more and more. There is just nothing out there, and what is out there either I am not quite qualified for or it’s something I physically can’t do right now. On the bright side, I have an interview with a family next Tuesday to “nanny” or hang out with their twin girls. Their names are Piper and Lucy. What cute names. I hope they will hire me for a little while anyways. That will give me some routine and schedule in my life. I need that…..or something.
Pray good things happen I guess. Keep the faith.
Eating. Still hate it. I ate a bit of steak tonight. Something I probably shouldn’t have. But I did. Had a bit of mashed taters with it. I also drank some Mt. Dew. That in itself is a no no. I am ruining my diet plan. Eating plan rather. Back on the boat tomorrow morning. I want to get out and walk tomorrow too. Maybe do the bands tomorrow too. I need to get working on this, seriously working on it. Or I will never make it to where I want to be. ugh. Why does losing weight have to be such hard work? Staying in a good zone such hard work? It seems so easy for some folks and for a person like me, I have to work and work and work at it. Hate that. But I will do it. I need to do it. For myself and for my K. For us to be alive and fun and healthy. It’s all gotta work that way.
Life is a constant battle between my love of food & not wanting to get fat. <—–got that from FB today. and that is exactly what it is somedays. ugh.
soooo, there it is. Life goes on. I am still going. My depression isn’t as bad. M has finally quit calling and texting me. I hope he gets lost somewhere and I never hear or see him again.
Talked with my friend A yesterday. Her daughter turns 1 this weekend. She invited me over for her birthday lunch on Sunday. I am seriously thinking about going. I won’t know a soul except A. But maybe that will be fun anyways. who knows. I need to get out more and do more. I need to find things that make me happy and content again.
ohhhhh…..Grand Canyon University sent me stuff to register for classes in the next term. wooohooo. I might get it all done after all. How exciting. I hope it doesn’t break my bank. I don’t have much money to be doing any more classes. But I so wanna be done with it all. So am going to do it. Will call the admissions dude back tomorrow. hmmmm….will keep ya posted on that.
Happy Ash Wednesday. †