YAY!! I have a job interview in the morning. I am excited and nervous all at the same time. I so want and need a job. I just need to feel more productive than I have been. I am doing stuff everyday but it all feels kinda rut like…if that makes sense. I feel a bit of sadness/depression creeping in. I don’t want or need that. Especially when things are actually going pretty well.
I want things to just work out. I have been doing well for almost 3 years with no hospitalizations other than surgery. My mental health is finally stabilized where I feel pretty “normal”. LOL I hate that word. I am still in therapy …see a counselor once a week. Which is a life line for me most days. Just being able to ask questions and get some different ideas on how to cope and deal with stuff is good for me. Sometimes I wonder if I am too “therapized”. LOL
Talked to my mom today. She is doing better. She had a tooth pulled this week and then when they pulled it….the crown came off the tooth next to it. I really feel for her. I am not fond of dentists. LOL K is doing good too. Mom said she had kind of a rough day today. This little boy in her class keeps hugging her and touching her when she doesn’t want him to. I keep telling her to keep saying no to him and tell him to keep his hands off ya. I also said that if he doesn’t listen to tell her teacher. I hope that this kind of stuff stops. This other kid is quite a big boy. I don’t want her to be intimidated by him or anyone else. I want her to be strong and stand up for herself. It’s so hard to teach that sometimes. Especially when it has been so hard for me in the past. I better at it now….wayyyy better. I don’t put up with much crap anymore. LOL
I am starting a creative journal. I want to start drawing and doodling again. Maybe making collages or something. I need to get to that calming part of me again. I used to LOVE art work. I got a really good book today in the mail. Also got a new Judy Moody book for K and me for this weekend. I will be traveling to Iowa again for the weekend. I am excited about it.
Life is really ok right now. So strange for me to say that. But it truly is….and I am truly blessed.