something from my past has crept into my life and has effected me now and will for the rest of my life. i will forever be reminded of the hideous acts of another human being who physically took power over me. my heart hurts that i will always have a reminder that will not go away.
i know have an illness that will effect who i am physically and mentally and socially. I will feel dirty and unwanted all over again. i hate this man. i hate him. (I don’t usually hate because that is such a strong word, but in this situation right now….hate is what I mean).
Not sure what to do other than take the medicine that the doctor has ordered for me. I will forever be alone.