Sadness and Pain

something from my past has crept into my life and has effected me now and will for the rest of my life. i will forever be reminded of the hideous acts of another human being who physically took power over me. my heart hurts that i will always have a reminder that will not go away.

i know have an illness that will effect who i am physically and mentally and socially.  I will feel dirty and unwanted all over again.  i hate this man.  i hate him.  (I don’t usually hate because that is such a strong word, but in this situation right now….hate is what I mean).

Not sure what to do other than take the medicine that the doctor has ordered for me.  I will forever be alone.

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