Going more on the epiphanies….here’s number 6:
6. Emotions exist to make us biased.
This discovery was a complete 180 from my old understanding of emotions. I used to think my emotions were reliable indicators of the state of my life — of whether I’m on the right track or not. Your passing emotional states can’t be trusted for measuring your self-worth or your position in life, but they are great at teaching you what it is you can’t let go of. The trouble is that emotions make us both more biased and more forceful at the same time. Another survival mechanism with nasty side-effects.
True. True. True. True. Or at least I thought it was too. Until…..yeah…until just in the past few months. I have learned the emotions are not facts. Well, feelings are not facts. They are NOT reliable. The are NOT about what is real about what is going on. As a matter of fact, they just are. It is what it is. I have notices this more so lately as I have been going to this pain specialist for my chronic pain syndrome and fibromyalgia stuff. He is treating me with some hormone therapy. Let me tell you…this SUCKS. My emotions are way outta whack. I find myself crying at the little things. Angry at the little things. Up and down….all over the place. When I went back to see him last week, I realized that these new pills that he had prescribed to me were making my emotions crazy. Yes hormones effect your emotions more than you will ever realize. Doesn’t matter if it’s just your thyroid or period or male ego. Whatever it is…yes…it all has a play in how you feel. I didn’t really understand it or “get it” until last week. Holy shit! took me 40 years to finally see the light so to speak. Duh!!
Anyway, you can’t trust your emotions to figure out where you are in life. They are not true indicators of who you are or what you are doing. You are more than your tears. More than your fears. More than your hurt. More than your pain. Even more than your happiness. There is so much more to you than all of that. God made you more than just what you feel.
What you value, what you believe in. When you keep your word and when you follow that path that was meant for you to follow. That is where you are to be. Do what you love….Be happy because you can. Be who you are because you can. Don’t wait for your emotions to catch up…just do it….because you can…because you are worth every minute, every second of this life.