I met with Amanda last week and she challenged me on my thinking A LOT. I have been mulling it over in my head for the past week. Yeah….that long. We talked about that have to’s. All the things I “have to” do or “should” do.
But recently, like the few days, I have a case if of the I don’t wanna’s. I don’t wanna clean the apartment. I don’t wanna do laundry. I don’t wanna do dishes. I just don’t wanna do anything. You get the picture.
I have a friend who consistently tells me to take things one day at a time or if not that, one moment at a time. I don’t have to do everything all at once.
Amanda tells me to re-frame how I talk to myself. Instead of telling myself that I have to do something, say that I get to do it. I get to do the laundry because clean clothes smell good and look good.
I don’t HAVE to do anything, really. Except the things that keep me out of jail (if that is what I want)…to take care of my daughter and myself.
Some days I don’t wanna get up. But I do.
Some days I don’t wanna do laundry. But I do.
Some days I don’t wanna put gas in my car. But I do.
Or I don’t. But none of those “don’ts” can last long because I have responsibilities. And my health is a very important responsibility. So I pull my head out of the muck. I get to go grocery shopping. I get to go work out. I get to cook delicious healthy food that makes me feel good. And I get to be healthy. It’s just that some days, it’s one moment at a time.