Life and Everyday

Because of You

I wrote this in honor of my good friend Tracy.  He has made a huge impact on my life.  I first met Tracy when I was 17.  I was a junior counselor at Riverside Lutheran Bible Camp in Story City, IA.  It was the summer after my junior year in high school.  I was struggling with life as most teens do.  My life was crazy as some may know ( if you have heard my story).  But this is a bit of the good stuff.  Camp is/has been my “light in the darkness” or in the darkest times that I can remember.  It was one of my sanctuaries while growing up….even in young adulthood.


Because of You

Because of you…I am alive today

Because of you…I know what God’s love is like

Because of you…I know what true friendship is means

Because of you…I know that God will never give up on me

Because of you…I know persistence and dedication

Because of you…I know there is hope

Because of you…I know what know how laughing, happiness, joy, faith, peace and love feels inside me

Because of you…I know what God’s unconditional love is, because you have shown me yours.


Because of you, I know tomorrow might not be perfect, but God’s love never fails.  When I first met you in 1987, I was a mess of a teenage girl.  Bible camp was my escape from a chaos that consumed my thoughts and dreams.  Pastor Art, accepted me as a junior counselor that summer, little did I know that I would meet some of the most wonderful friends I would ever encounter.  You just happen to be one of the friends who made me think about what God has done in my life and what He CAN DO IN my life.  When I felt hopeless, you kept giving me reasons why I should be hopeful.  When I wanted to give up, you helped me find reasons to keep moving forward.

I marked the Bible verse you shared with me that made the biggest difference in my life:  Psalm 139:13-14 “For you created my inmost being, you knit me together in my mothers’ womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made, I know that full well.”

All this…because of you…and God!

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Friends…..or not?



I have doing a lot of thinking about the people (friends new and old) in my life lately.  My emotions have been so caught up in them and their stuff.  I realized today that I am forgetting to take care of me.  I have had to cut ties with a few in the past few months…..

You know what, though? I don’t regret it.

Since I cut this particular person and a few others over the years, I have made space for people to come into my life who realize that a relationship (intimate or friendly) is a give and take. My happiness has increased in amazing amounts, and I credit this rule with much of it:

I don’t spend time with people who suck my energy.

I just don’t do it. Call me mean, call me selfish. If you’re negative, hurtful, or expect things from me without giving me anything in return, you won’t make it past the first meeting.

I realize this is a controversial topic, but it’s important to face the reality of your situation.

If you want to live a happy life, you can’t let other people hold you back.

There are those who just want company in their own misery, or those who only want to have you as their waste basket to toss negative complaints into.

The wrong friends will suck happiness out of you, make you feel bad about yourself, or try to drag you down with them.

You are worth more than that. You deserve love and support just as much as they do.

When you realize that those friends who are mean or all-around negative aren’t adding anything positive to your life, it can be devastating.

People change. Friends change.

Some people we’ve known our whole lives could have turned into bitter negative nancies, even though we have fond memories from early on in the relationship.

Don’t get stuck in the past. Concentrate on the present.

If someone is holding you back from full-fledged happiness, that person is not a true friend.

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Nothing interesting…

I don’t really have anything interesting on my mind tonight.  So, I am just going to post a few quotes that I have been focusing on lately.  Enjoy.

For those of you that think about thinking. Stop thinking about it and just think.

It’s all about love, baby!! Loving yourself, loving God, loving your friends, loving your life. You are worth it all my friends!!! ♥♥†♥♥

Even if you are not responsible for your situation, you are responsible for your reaction to it.

Sometimes the people who have the greatest roles in teaching us lessons and leading us to progress are the people who are the most challenging.

Happiness does not come from the sources that most people seek, but from specific practices in our lives. We can control far more than we realize in achieving happiness. ♥†♥

“Beauty is how you feel inside, and it reflects in your eyes. It is not something physical.”
~ Sophia Loren

‎”Whatever you are, be a good one.” ~ Abraham Lincoln

Wherever you go, go with all your heart.

Do you sometimes feel small? Be encouraged by these words from Psalm 8. God loves you.

Psalm 8:3-5 When I consider your heavens, the work of your fingers, the moon and the stars, which you have set in place, what is mankind that you are mindful of them, human beings that you care for them? You have made them a little lower than the angels and crowned them with glory and honor. (NIV)

Your love has given me great joy and encouragement, because you,
brother, have refreshed the hearts of the saints.
— Philemon 1:7

He who has a why to live for can bear almost any how.
– Friedrich Nietzsche –

You might not end up where you thought you’d be, but you will always end up where you’re meant to be. – Right where God intended you to be all along. ♥

If time heals all wounds, then why don’t the belly button fill in???

Character cannot be developed in ease and quiet. Only through the experience of trial and suffering can the soul be strengthened, vision cleared, ambition inspired, and success achieved. – Helen Keller

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Busy Day

Today I saw my family practice doc, well his PA.  She was happy that I am doing so well this early after the surgery.  The nurse I had was also telling me about her brother who had this surgery about 6 months ago and has lost nearly 200 lbs.  A.MA.ZING!!!  I am so excited at the possibilities.  It’s hard to imagine that I could be 100 pounds lighter in just a few more months.  I don’t really “feel” any different now.  I have noticed though, I am able to sit in some armed chairs and be comfortable and not squished.  So cool.  I look in the mirror and don’t see a lot of changes yet.  But I know it will come.

I had a lot of blood work done today and it all came back good but my iron is still borderline low.  So gotta keep on top of that.

I have been trying to stay really positive lately.  Keep reminding myself that I am one of God’s children and deserve to feel good.  He has done some pretty awesome things in my life in the last year.  I have some wonderful and supportive friends.  My mom and I are closer than we have ever been.  I started back at UNI with classes that are going to be so awesome. (well lots of work but awesome none the less).  I have just had lots of opportunities open up to me this year.  It’s August and I have so much to be thankful for.

One thing I have learned is Christianity is like this weight loss stuff.  It’s a whole lifestyle change.  Finding God is an invitation to find life.  Just as this surgery is giving me an opportunity to find a different life.  Except this invitation is about a relationship with Christ.  It’s not religion.  It’s a relationship.  Christ overcame so much pain in the world.  This relationship with Christ is not easy.  It doesn’t come without pain and some suffering too.  It does give you a purpose and meaning in a world of confusion and darkness.  It is real.  Christ is real.

God is calling me to do some pretty bold things these days.  I am speaking boldly, acting boldly for myself and for Christ.  God really does heal the brokenhearted (Psalm 147:3).  I was one of those brokenhearted people.  He has given me life.  A life like I have never know before.  Found this quote this morning: Never let the odds keep you from doing what you know in your heart you were meant to do.  I am not going to let anything stop me from believing and doing what my heart is telling me to do and be.

2 Corinthians 5:17-21    17 Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come: The old has gone, the new is here! 18 All this is from God, who reconciled us to himself through Christ and gave us the ministry of reconciliation:19 that God was reconciling the world to himself in Christ, not counting people’s sins against them. And he has committed to us the message of reconciliation.20 We are therefore Christ’s ambassadors, as though God were making his appeal through us. We implore you on Christ’s behalf: Be reconciled to God.  21 God made him who had no sin to be sin for us, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God.

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30 Day Blog Challenge – Day 30

Day 30: A picture of yourself this day and 5 good things that happened since you started the challenge

I can’t believe this is the last day of this challenge.  It has really helped me to think about some things that I haven’t really given thought to for a very long time.  So here are the 5 good things that have happened since starting this challenge:

1.  I have gained more confidence in what I write and think and say.

2.  Reading people’s comments has been very inspiring.  New friends and old friends.

3.  The mess with Iowa Medicaid and payment for Bariatric surgery has been overturned.

4.  I had my VSG surgery done.

5.  Classes have started at UNI, and so far so good.

This is a picture of me from Monday, August 22, 2011.  1st Day of classes at UNI.


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30 Day Blog Challenge – Day 28

Day 28: What stresses you out?

Old friends who argue about the rightness or wrongness of words, or how they are used.  People argue intelligence instead of feelings when it’s about feelings in the first place.

Sometimes deadlines stress me out.  Especially if I have slacked off and not stayed caught up on the things I need to before the deadline comes.

Being late for an appointment or something where I said I would be somewhere at some appointed time.

Spiders stress me out.  BIG TIME.  I can handle most other beetle bugs, roly polys, crickets, etc.  But NO spiders for me.

Sometimes waiting stresses me out.  Like waiting for results from a blood test or an x-ray.  Waiting for an appointment sometimes does to me as well.

People who think they are always right stress me out.

Moving to a new place, stresses me out.  I have moved so much, you would think I would just go with the flow.  NOT….stress me out baby!!


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30 Day Blog Challenge – Day 24

Day 24: Something you’ve learned.


I have learned so much in the past 40 years.  It’s hard to narrow it down to just something to interesting to write here.  I came across a quote this morning that really sums up how I am feeling about life at the moment.

At some point, you have to make a decision. Boundaries don’t keep other people out. They fence you in. Life is messy. That’s how we’re made. So, you can waste your lives drawing lines. Or you can live your life crossing them -Grey’s Anatomy

Boundaries.  Something that has been nailed into my head since the beginning of “therapy time”.  I have been told I need boundaries.  Of course I do.  I see my boundaries now as my set of values and morals.  Though most of my life I have been setting some mental and physical boundaries to keep people out of my life.  I don’t want to get hurt again.  This past year has been a series of breaking those boundaries that I have set up.  If I keep setting up these walls (boundaries) to not get hurt, then what am I learning?  To be alone? To not live?  To not learn?  

Life is messy.  I want to learn how to deal with the ups and downs.  I want to challenge myself to stretch out beyond the walls that were once there.  I still have a few walls.  I need them.  But I won’t let them fence me in anymore.  I need to live.  I need that challenge of figuring out how to pick up the pieces when it all falls apart.  And I am.  I can’t tie life up into one neat little package with a pretty bow.  I don’t think I want to.

My life is a journey with many twists and turns.  I stumble, I fall, but as Toby Mac says “Get back up again”.  🙂

There have a been a few thing happen this week that seems out of control but you know what, they are not out of control….they are in God’s control.  I don’t feel wrecked about it.  I just know, God’s got it.  If it’s meant to be worked out it will and if not, well, the ride was well  worth it.  I loved the ride but it’s time to get on another and see where it will take me.