This is my 2012 in review…..quoting a few from old posts:
In January, I moved to Woodbury, MN. I was living my good friend, Robin, in her townhouse. I started looking for jobs and looking and looking and looking……..
“I am trying to get everything connected….get myself organized and in sync with all that is going on here. Being in a new place is sometimes very unnerving for me. I guess just about every time I have moved, my anxiety has gotten to me. You know being spiritual, I try to connect to God at least every morning when I get up. I say thank you God. Thank you God. Just Thanks. Not much more than that in the beginning of my day. But i know there is more for connection than that.”
“Been also trying to get in with weight loss clinic up here so they can help me keep tabs on how my surgery and weight loss is going. I hit weight loss of 75 pounds this past week. SOOOO HAPPY!! woohoo. Can’t believe I have lost 75 pounds already. Still working on more.”
Started therapy with Adam.
“This past week I have been struggling with a fear of eating. I think most of it revolves around control. I know the things I need to do, but the fear of gaining what I have already lost is very scary to me. Before I left Iowa, I had a handle on knowing my numbers, my blood levels and felt generally pretty well. Since coming to MN, I feel outta control. I don’t have a grasp on my numbers yet. I know I have lost some since being here. But as far as blood levels and such….not so much.”
“A new chapter has started in my life. Moving to Minnesota is the beginning of this new journey. But I still don’t know if I am in the right place or the right time. If that makes sense. I have become to feel more comfortable in my skin yet, there are so many who are doubtful and questioning why I am doing what I am doing and how come, etc. It seems so difficult for some people to understand why I am making the choices I am. I feel it is right for me. At this moment in time. I have been called bull headed, stubborn and gonna do whatever I want no matter what anyone says. Been un-friended on Facebook by a few this past week cuz I stood up for myself and what I believe in.”
Started going to the YMCA!!!
K spent all spring break with me!!
“1. Love more – I need to love more….not pass judgement to fast. I need to get out more and do the things that make me feel good. I need to remember to tell the people that I really care about, that I love them….all the time….not just when it’s convenient.”
SOUL DETOX is the topic at LifeChurch.tv. Whew….great series.
Started classes at Argosy University-Twin Cities. (Eagan MN) Good but strange to be back in classes again.
At the end of the month K came home to live with me. What a joyous occasion. She is finally home after 2 1/2 years.
“Going the extra mile is tough because it means stretching further after you’ve already stretched. It means giving more even after you’ve already given. The first part is like, “Oh, this is my Christian duty.” But the second part, the “above and beyond” part, is purely out of the kindness of your heart.”
I moved to Hastings MN!!
“I have learned that life is about choices. So many, that I have lost count. Choosing the make the best choice you can is sometimes really difficult….at least sometimes it is for me. I have been trying to teach K about making good choices. Being 8 years old, it’s really hard for her to make good ones, most days. Then there are some days she makes the absolute best choices ever and has a superb day. Those days we celebrate. On the others, we still celebrate the good choices she has made but talk about the others that could have been better. We talk about what other things she could have done instead. I hope this is helping her to know that good choices lead to good feelings and good things.”
Dealt with some old friends who “unfriended” me on FB….which is ok, I guesss. Still hurt because we had been friends for over 20 years. It’s about choices. It’s about standing up for what I believe in too.
K got her tonsils out June 25, 2012. She did great. The after it, healing…..oh …well…oy oy oy!!!
My brother is running for sheriff of Worth county in Iowa. So K and I went to many parades and helped him out. We looked awesome in our bright yellow shirts.
More job hunting…..and more and more and more
There was a big tragedy in my hometown where kids died and some hospitalized. They were K’s age and a little older. Sad day for Northwood.
Still figuring out how to pay for college, but still taking classes anyways. LOL
Started off this month reading a blog by Chris Sprad, Epic Parent!! What a cool dude!! Has awesome parenting ideas and a good Christian way of looking at parenthood.
Got word that I am now I was hired with Minnesota Reading Corps . This is part of the AmeriCorps “company”. I don’t what to call it. LOL
Weight loss surgiversary = Aug 11, 2012
total weight loss to date 102 pounds!!
K turns 9 years old!! OMG I feel old. We had a party at the park by the pool. Invited friends….had a photo booth, mustaches galore. Cake and punch and so much fun!!
K also started school at Kennedy Elementary School here in Hastings. 3rd Grade…..she sure struggled a lot those first few days. Her teacher is Mrs. Harris. She is truly an awesome teacher/friend.
Started this month by going to Nesbitt’s Pumpkin Patch and Farm. What a fun time…..jumping on hay bales…..running through the grass…..driving little pedal tractors. LOL
Learning the single parenting is harder and harder. K and I butt heads often. I try so hard to read and talk and listen to friends and family and professionals to try to figure out how to help her become more comfortable here. It’s still a huge adjustment for her here…..and for me.
Tutoring kids at school – K to 3rd is amazing. I love my work!!!
Halloween at school was a hoot. K and I both had pink hair. Both in ponytails….both of us just goofy.
I did a month of giving thanks. It was hard for me to keep up, but I did do it.
I had a lot of writing about stress….holiday time is my stress. Everything leads up to expectations and what not. But….made it through Thanksgiving, Black Friday and slid right into December.
It’s still December, but it has overall been a good year for me. My BIGGEST blessing this year has been my daughter coming home. It’s been a lot of stress, but sooo much LOVE.
Spent a week being sick…..down and ugly sick. Missed my kids at school terribly. They missed me too. It has been a short month for school.
Been having K in for testing at the Center for Attention, Learning, and Memory. Trying to figure out how to help her better. She has a type of ADHD, but trying to figure out what type and which treatment will work best for her.
Christmas at mom’s was great. ALL of us in one house for the first time since my dad passed away (12 years ago). They finally put on their big kid panties and dealt with it and let my mom have a wonderful Christmas. I don’t think I have seen her smile so much in years.
Another weight loss update: to date 110 pounds:
And with that…..