30 Day Blog Challenge – Day 30

Day 30: A picture of yourself this day and 5 good things that happened since you started the challenge

I can’t believe this is the last day of this challenge.  It has really helped me to think about some things that I haven’t really given thought to for a very long time.  So here are the 5 good things that have happened since starting this challenge:

1.  I have gained more confidence in what I write and think and say.

2.  Reading people’s comments has been very inspiring.  New friends and old friends.

3.  The mess with Iowa Medicaid and payment for Bariatric surgery has been overturned.

4.  I had my VSG surgery done.

5.  Classes have started at UNI, and so far so good.

This is a picture of me from Monday, August 22, 2011.  1st Day of classes at UNI.

 

Post op visit

WOW!!  9 pounds in 9 days.  How amazing is that?  Dr. LaMasters said that she thinks that I am doing pretty well.  The incisions are healing just fine too.  Dr. Brady told me I was on track.  We went over some weight loss goals.  My first goal is to get under 300.  Which I am almost there.  My weight yesterday was 313.  When I weighed before surgery I was at 322.  After I meet the 299 goal….I want to reach for 270.  I have looked at the dates yet to see what the target date is.  I will be working on that later today.

Eating is so different now.  Mostly getting protein from shakes and drinks.  I can start eating things like chicken salad, tuna salad, egg salad.  It’s getting better.  Just have to eat the soft/liquidy foods.  I can start eating scrambled eggs and mashed potatoes.  This morning I am drinking my shake and enjoying some oatmeal with some fresh peach puree in it.  Doesn’t taste half bad.  I can’t take my meds all at once either.  One at a time.  Good thing they discontinued some of my meds now.  I made an appointment to see Dr. Goetsch here in town to get some blood work done.  Gotta keep up on the iron, potassium, VitD, and uric acid levels.  They were the ones giving me such trouble before.

I put on a pair of capris that were a little tight before.  They fit great now.  Amazing feeling being able to get into something that was tight before and now is very comfortable.

This journey is off to a running start now.  It’s very exciting and very fun.  I will be starting Zumba water aerobics after Labor Day.  I am excited about that also.  Last semester about half way through they cancelled the class cuz people didn’t come.  So I am really hoping people stick this out.

Second day of classes today.  I have 3 of them:  The Holocaust, Fundraising and Budget/Grant Writing, and Non-Profit Youth agencies.  Start at 11 and will be home sometime around 6pm.

Life is good.  God is good all the time.   And all the time God is good.

Beginnings, Endings and Everything In Between

I know I have blogged earlier about a man named Dr. Henry Cloud who wrote a book called “Necessary Endings”.  I believe I shared a video of him talking on that subject as well.  What an awesome message he has to share.

The summer is ending here.  K will start back to school next week.  A new teacher, a handful of new kids, new shoes, and I am sure lots of new stories to tell.  I, too, will be returning to classes in another week.  This is my last year at UNI.  I received all my textbooks that I have ordered from amazon, except for one, which was sent in the wrong edition.  Otherwise I am ready.

I am post op 5 days now.  I am feeling really good.  At times, I get pangs of pain, but it’s nothing that I can’t handle.  I have found that crying hurts and laughing hurts too.  I didn’t realize that so many stomach muscles were involved in the two actions.  I’d much rather laugh tho.  I have cried a few times already due to things beyond my control.  I have found that stress/anxiety is not good for me right now.  It makes the stomach muscles tight and achy.  It’s hard to breathe too.  I have vowed to breathe through whatever comes up right now.  Let me tell you….I certainly know how to breathe.   I wish I could avoid anxiety and stress in general until the healing was more done (not the proper way to say it).  But, to no avail, stress and anxiety are rampant in my life once again.

While I was listening to Dr. Cloud last night, I realized that there are definitely some necessary endings that need to take place in my life.  First and foremost, the way that I eat.  I need to eat for healthy reasons not to stop or stuff a feeling.  I have done really well in that area the past 6-8 months.  But struggling over things with a friend of mine, I find that I want to snack more.  I can’t do that now either.  I know I will get sick.  So instead, I am dealing with the emotions and everything that comes with it now.  It’s not so bad getting right down to it.  It just means I have to be bold in my actions and words.  No half-way about it.

Dr. Cloud mentioned that it takes courage to end stuff.  God will open something up next and it will blow your mind.  He is so right!!  I am using my courage to step out of a hurtful situation, friendship.  Things were said and done on both our parts that should have never happened.  But the truth of the matter is, I feel like I was naive in thinking that someone would not take advantage of me. Especially when this person claimed to be my best friend.  I believe things have been happening over the past year and half or maybe longer.  I trusted her, she broke that trust and I didn’t find out until just a few days ago.  Long story short, this friendship is now her choice to deal with.  I know where I stand and what I want to do.  I am living it.  I will not “beat her over the head” with it, I just am weary of ever being so trusting.  I believe this says more about her than it does about me.

God has bigger plans for me.  I feel it and I see it.  My God is supernatural.  God is alive and He is listening to my thoughts.  I know that if I keep believing that He is my Creator, I can let go of my way of doing things.  He is the creator of my tomorrows.  I know He will take care of whatever is coming next.  As a few of my friends say, “He’s got this one, just like the last one.”

Both beginnings and endings are hard.  Heck, even the in between times are difficult.  But I trust in God and my friends and family.  I know who loves and cares for me.  That is most important.

30 Day Blog Challenge – Day 21

Day 21: Something you’re proud of.

I don’t usually think much about the things I am proud of.  I don’t want people to think that I am “better” than them or whatever.  But I have been thinking about this, it really is ok to be proud of your own accomplishments and to let people know about them.  I know this person who thinks it’s absolutely horrible of me to say anything positive about myself.  I am not sure why he feels that way, he just hates it when I share my accomplishments.

One of the things I am most proud of right now is that I have gone through with the gastric sleeve surgery.  I know the road ahead of me isn’t going to be easy.  I feel that already.  But, this is an amazing step in making myself realize how much I need to be “here” for my daughter, my family, and my friends.  I want to be healthy and able to run and play without all the painful joints/painful back, being out of breath, etc.  I am willing to give up all those foods that got me to where I am now.  Pizza sounds really delish right now, but I know I can’t have that now.  I will eventually, but just not at this moment.  That is how it is with a lot of food right now.  I am on the full liquid diet, so everything has to go down liquid-y.

Another things I am proud of at this moment is that I am almost finished with my classes at UNI.  Two semesters to go, I will be a graduate.  I have worked hard to get where I am right now.  I know I will continue to do so.

Being proud of yourself for your accomplishments isn’t something that should be put down by other people.  Maybe it’s jealousy or the mire fact that they don’t understand.

I am happy with what I am doing, the accomplishments made, and what the future may hold for me.  I am excited as there will be new beginnings coming as well.

 

30 Day Blog Challenge – Day 16 and more

Day 16: Your opinion about your body and how comfortable you are with it.

Oh my my!!  How appropriate subject for today.  I will be having the gastric sleeve surgery this coming Thursday.  So my opinion of my body is changing as I type.  I am on a full liquid diet today.  I stomached my first protein shake.  It was vanilla mixed with skim milk.  The first few sips were ok but by the time I was near the end….whoa.  NOT what I was expecting.  It was hard to get it all down.  I think next time, I will mix it with some fresh fruit…blend it up, add some ice, and try a slush.  I hope that will be better.

I have these bumps and curves that are in places they shouldn’t be.  Last year I had a breast reduction due to inflamed fibroids.  So, that was taken care of nicely.  Now to get my body in that shape. I have managed to lose close to 20 pounds since starting this journey this past February.  That is pretty decent for me.

Today, I signed up for Aquatic Zumba and a meditation awareness series for this semester here at the U.  The zumba stuff starts the first part of September.  Well, actually I think it starts Aug 29, but I won’t be cleared to start until the next week.  The meditation series is in October.   I am excited about both.  I thought about taking a yoga class…but I don’t want to push it too much right after surgery.

Classes begin Aug 22.  I have the week before (wait, that is next week) to rest up and recover.  Oh wow…it’s coming so quickly.  K starts school on the 15th.  I talked to her last night on the phone and asked who her teacher was this year.  “It’s a boy” she said.  I just had to chuckle.  My good friend is the other 2nd grade teacher.  I hope it’s a good year for her…with “the boy” teacher.  🙂

Today is my last day at work.  I am sitting her in the office with not much going on.  Both deans are in today.  So it’s still pretty quiet.  They both had vacation last week.  Back to the grind.  I wonder what they will have for me when classes start?  I know I have a huge mailing that will need to be done sometime in October and November for all the alums from UNI.  I did that last year.  Not a problem.

As for this 30 day blog series, I might have to miss Thursdays.  Or maybe Karen will type it out for me as I lay in bed at the hospital.  LOL  We’ll see.  Transformation begins today.  I really do like myself today and most days as well.  Life has turned around for me in the past year.  It’s been an amazing year.  Even if I didn’t marry the man who was supposed to be the man of my dreams.  (poor him).  Being single isn’t too bad.  I have a great group of friends and a wonderful family.  Support is something I am not used to, but I sure like it.  Feels great to be loved.

Carry on….this blog is done.  Enjoy your day!!

30 Day Blog Challenge – Day 14

Day 14: A picture of you last year – how have you changed?

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

This was actually taken in September of last year at Katey’s 7th birthday.  I don’t think I look a whole lot different.  Katey has grown since then.

I have changed in ways that I didn’t think I would.  I have become stronger and more confident in myself.  I think that I am more happy and content with my life.  I still love my daughter very much, even though she still isn’t with me all the time.  I am embarking on my last year at UNI.  This will continue to change this next year.  I plan for all good things.  I know there will be bumps along the way, but I won’t let them get me down.