simplify – Journey to Wholeness

I am thankful for some simplicity in my life. With so many choices and decisions, so many demands from people and things in my world, it’s a real challenge to ‘keep it simple’. Making it simple means making things easy and clear (which isn’t always easy). My magic wand (sometimes broken) to wave over my life is mostly planning and prioritizing. Make plans, long and short term and then priorities. Then I try to practice taking one thing at a time, so I can have one thought at a time, with some space before I have to have my next thought. I try not to get attached to my plans or priorities. I try to be flexible (easy) and yet focused (clear) and in this way I can teach myself to think simply and act simply. One thought at a time. At my own pace. In my own space. A simple life is a contented life. Simplicity is hard to come by somedays when you have a child. But I am trying to teach her the same.

I am thankful for cappuccino. This has been a great thing these past couple cold mornings. It’s been in the 20’s for a few days when it’s time to get up and going. I have my window in my bedroom open just a crack and boy can I even feel the coolness. But I love it too. I sleep so much better when it’s cool in my bedroom. Vanilla cappuccino is my favorite. But I bought this Caramel vanilla bean cappuccino….I think I am in love. ♥ Simple again. Just for me.

I have been a hurting unit for a couple weeks now. Not just physically, but mentally as well. I feel bogged down and sluggish. My days are so full, that lately….even though I have stuff scheduled from the time I get up until the time I go to bed, I have totally shut down. I haven’t gone anywhere. I haven’t done much of anything (but take a shower and maybe eat something). I have become suspended in time, so to speak. Days are going by….I haven’t been to many of my classes. I am cancelling appointments. I am rearranging things to do at a later time.

What am I doing when I am not going and doing and being all the time? I don’t really know. I haven’t been sleeping. I know I have been physically sick. But time is getting away from me. I am experiencing that “dissociation” again. I am not connected to anything. I am, but I’m not. I know my calendar is full….but am I really there?

So, I am going to pause a moment. (break it up, call time, catch one’s breath, cease, come to standstill, deliberate, desist, discontinue, drop, halt, hesitate, hold back, interrupt, put on hold, reflect, rest, shake, sideline, stop briefly, suspend, take a break, take a breather, take five, take ten, think twice, waver)

I am going to simplify. I NEED to. Somehow I have to figure out what is most important to me and go from there. I am not so sure that where I am now, is where I need to be.

(http://zenhabits.net/simple-living-manifesto-72-ideas-to-simplify-your-life/) is the link that I am going to use to help me figure out what is important and how to simplify. So today…… Make a list of your top 4-5 important things. What’s most important to you? What do you value most? What 4-5 things do you most want to do in your life? Simplifying starts with these priorities, as you are trying to make room in your life so you have more time for these things.

1) My family – (esp K)

2) My faith

3) My health (physical and mental)

4) My friends

5) ???